What I sort of remember how the call went:
NICU - "Hi Nicole. During rounds this morning the doctor thinks that Colin is ready to go home so we want to discharge today."
Me - "What? Seriously? We thought it was going to be Saturday like you told us."
NICU - "No, looks like today. So what time should we expect you?"
Not that I don't want the little dude home so he could join the other dude, but my expectations were set for Saturday, so I had at least 2 days to get anything else done that needed to be done before holing up in my house with two babies. Expectations cut. The reality is that Colin is coming home today. The pause on our lives is over. Ready or not, here comes baby!
We had already been through discharge on Monday so today's discharge went pretty quick. After all the photos, we were getting ready to leave with Colin and Thomas who came with us I was just overcome. The place where my kids lived for five months, where they were cared for, watched over and loved - they were leaving and not going back. The doctors and nurses there were like my extended family. John and I spent hours there - sometimes during the 7PM shift change. We got to know everyone and they us.
I was just overcome with gratitude for all that they have done for us. I might have also shed a few tears realizing that I would have to take care of the boys 24/7 on my own. Dang. But mostly I cried because I really was sad we were leaving what was known to us for five months. It has been such a journey and now we were starting a new one.
It isn't like we won't see them again. We have promised the nurses that we will be back to celebrate the boys birthday as well as come by during the holidays. Actually, they will see us on Tuesday. We have a follow up appointment with their new pediatrician. Really, they can't get rid of us. We are part of the NICU family. Plus we bring treats.
What is it like with everyone home? I am still working on that. In fact, I am waiting for the Colin and Thomas to wake up for their next feeding. We shall see how it goes. More on that later.