I think with the boys still in the NICU, the whole idea that John and I are parents really isn't real. Spending time with Colin and Thomas in the hospital can be equated to going to a petting zoo. You show up, hang out, feed and hold them, then wrap it up and leave. It sort of makes everything a bit weird. But I do have to be thankful that we are still sleeping through the night. When the boys come home that will be all over for awhile.